I need an attitude adjustment. Surprising, since I had a put-things-in-perspective week:  a friend’s husband died suddenly at age 58. I prayed with her weekly for years; you develop a closeness and a bond through that, even if time and circumstance grow you apart. I am heartbroken for her. 

But like I said, I need an attitude adjustment. Doesn’t happen to me very often, I am usually pretty upbeat, but I am feeling cranky! Someone hurt me, whether they realized it or not. And I am feeling cast aside, maybe even disliked a bit! Who, me? Nice, sweet, wonderful, me?

Do you know that people think they are nicer than they probably really are? When I read an article suggesting that (https://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/people-think-nicer-reality-self-image-see-yourself-goldsmiths-university-monarch-a7627161.html) it made me think. And I thought about it again now; maybe it’s me that needs an attitude adjustment, not the other person in my life. Okay, maybe they need one too, but that’s not my job. And maybe it really is all on me.

Enter the song repeating quietly in my head since church on Sunday.

Turn your eyes upon Jesus

Look full in His wonderful face

And the things on earth

Will grow strangely dim

In the light of His glory and grace.

Was that an accident they sang that Sunday, or that it was repeating all week in my head? Or that this particular week had a perspective-changing event that failed to change my perspective? Or that it was like a light that went on in my head, those two words, Look full?

Look full. 

I am thinking too much on me, and not on Thee, Lord. I admit it, and repent in dust and ashes